Morningmares

(This is a previos post to a blog I used to run regularly. I will be posting some of the better posts from this blog to make up for my lack of writing this month. This post is on 03/01/08)

I'm reading a book right now, Ishmael. It is starting out great. I like the writing, and the story is captivating. Without giving too much of a spoiler, it has to do with a gorilla and infinite wisdom. It is complex, yet simple, kind of like Jonathan Livingston Seagull. I'm only about 50 pages into it, just started, but it is shaping up quite nice. Looking for a good read, give it a whirl.


I had a very weird day. Didn't sleep well, had a fight with my man as soon as he woke up, harsh words, apologies, then back to sleep, morningmares, then the day alone. Tried to get my car inspected and the oil changed, spent an hour and a half trying to find a place open to do it (they used to be open on Saturdays, what happenned?) Then to work at 4. Slow night there too. Home at around 12:30, want to play poker, and new comp won't let me load the program. Probably simple, but I don't feel like messing with it tonight. Just perusing the net, catching up on some blogs. Feeling just all around weird tonight. Must be a moon phase, or a planet changing houses.


Morningmares, the same as nightmares, but in the morning. I have them every single time I get up in the morning, after 30mins to an hour, decide I need more sleep. I go back to sleep, and every time, I have a nightmare. It doesn't matter if I wake up in a good mood or not, if the morning interactions are smooth or not. It just doesn't matter. I rarely, if ever, have a nightmare at night. So I renamed them morningmares. They are very vivid, and I always wake up so upset, shaken, disturbed, and out of touch with this plane, that it takes me at least 30 mins to and hour and a half to get right in the head, to shake it mentally. Then normally the rest of the day it will consume my thoughts as I analyze the bejesus out of it. They always seem so real. And I normally wake after something very terrible happens. I wake and my heart is racing, I'm breathing heavy and normally scared. I jump out of bed as if it a bed made out of hot coals. And that normally causes an immediate imbalance in my equilibrium. And I stumble or fall. It's like I have to get out of my bedroom as quickly as possible...it's like I bring the dream into reality for a bit. Does anyone else do that too? How do you feel when you have nightmares, and are they so real that you wonder if it really did happen? Mine always involve people I care about.


Chime in in the comments section with your experiences in nightmares/morningmares.